Monday, July 20, 2015

Our Angel

               I have been thinking about what I wanted to write for a long time. I actually had the whole story typed out to share, but the more I wrote the more I realized that the story, with all its details, wasn't really the important part. It wasn't really those parts of the story that changed me.

              Before we lost Emily, my prayers to my Heavenly Father had been a bit vague, I didn't want to push my will so I just kept praying that things would work out the way they were supposed to. It wasn't until about a week before that I finally got specific in my prayers, I said that I wanted this baby, I wanted her to be on the earth with me, I wanted to raise her, I wanted to be there for her through all her earthly trials, and then I ended with, but if you need her, I will let you take her back.

            A week later he did, and it was the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. Sitting at the hospital after all the weeks of worry and stress, after all the trauma of losing her and getting to the hospital, Heavenly Father allowed me to see things in a different light. The whole time I kept saying I was scared to lose her and I didn't know what I would do if we did lose her. Then sitting in the hospital room holding Emily while Jacob held me, I felt an amazing peace fill me and the room and instead of being devastated, at least for that moment, I just felt incredibly blessed. Later someone referred to it as being an angel mommy, I was glad I got to be her mom, i was at peace that I was able to have her at all, even if it was only for a short time.

            Jacob gave me a priesthood blessing and I don't remember much of what he said but I do remember him saying that there would be angels on this side and the other side to help buoy us up. That was just what I needed and that is just what I got. So many friends and family, and even people I don't know very well gave me so much strength and support. And I can definitely attest to feeling angels from the other side all around me.

           Even through this hard thing, I was able to see so many blessings and I came to understand things that I thought I already understood. One thing that I thought I already knew was how the atonement of my Savior Jesus Christ worked. I have repented for things throughout my life but never have I felt so close to my Savior as I did one year ago. I was still at the hospital, so exhausted but unable to sleep, when that feeling of peace come over me again, this time even stronger. I really felt my Savior crying with me and reminding me to see things with an eternal perspective. He knew my concerns and assured me that this was always that plan and I couldn't have done anything differently to change the outcome. He needed Emily, and Emily needed me to be strong and make it back to her. Never has the atonement been so real to me, as I felt my Savior feel the same pain that I was experiencing in that moment.

         I am so grateful to have the knowledge of an eternal plan and to know that families can be together forever. That we have a purpose on earth and that we have a loving Heavenly Father who is waiting to welcome us back to be with him. I'm grateful to know that my Heavenly Father is aware of me. I am grateful for Jesus Christ and his willingness to suffer all the pains of the world so he can understand perfectly what each of us is asked to go through in this life.


Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Big changes...Lots of updates

              So there have probably been longer periods of times between my blogs but I think that this time has consisted of the biggest and most changes in our lives. I thought about trying to do multiple entries so it wasn't quite so overwhelming but let's face it... that probably won't happen. So now we will have one entry will a million pictures and a brief explanation of the changes that have taken place.  
              First, Jacob graduated from Utah State University and we moved away from Logan! Although we miss Logan and our Logan friends, it was a relief to finally be done being apartment managers. Even now I still have a hard time leaving my house because in the back of my mind I still have this thought that I need to stay home in case one of the students needs something or so I didn't miss an important call or something. I'm slowly coming out of it and enjoying it immensely! You can see pictures later of our graduation trip to San Francisco! 
             Next Jacob got a job and Rio Tinto as a mechanical engineer. Jacob started work on the 7th of January and has really enjoyed it so far. He likes all the people he works with and is really enjoying the projects he has gotten to work on thus far.  We also bought a house in Riverton. We started house hunting back in October and put a couple of offers in but nothing really worked out. We were both getting a little worried when part way through January we found a house, put in an offer, and we closed on it on the 7th of February. It was amazing to see how the Lord guided us to this area, we both really feel like we are meant to be here. We love the area and we love our ward.
           Moving right along, we are expecting our second baby! We are having another little girl who should be arriving around April 10th. This pregnancy has been going really fast and really smoothly. I think Evie is going to be a great big sister, she is already a big helper as you will see in some of the pictures below. The two girls will be about 17 months apart so I really hope they will always be good friends as they grow up. 
          I also put some Christmas pictures in and.... I just realized that I still haven't blogged about Evie's first birthday so that may have to come later....or you may just want to call me or e-mail me because that may be the only way you will ear about it or see pictures :) 
          So quick overview, life is wonderful! Jacob and I have been married for four years and couldn't be happier. Evie is the joy of our lives and makes everyday an adventure. We feel incredibly blessed and can't believe how wonderful our life is turning out. 
Evie and Miles (a friend from Logan)

San Francisco Trip (Graduation/Anniversary Trip)

China Town

 Christmas Time! 
So much snow in Moab! 

Christmas Morning

Can't you just see how excited she was...haha

 Temporary Housing 
Before we got into the house, Rio Tinto put us up for a month in an apartment, it was a really nice place and fully furnished so we could keep all of our stuff in storage until we were ready to move into our house. 

We didn't have her car seat so this was her first ride in a forward facing seat, she loved it. Too bad the law just changed so she has to wait till she is two to do it all the time :(

Evie giving daddy kisses through the glass coffee table :)

Evie chilln in her chair and my lovely growing belly :)
So grown up and ready for school

Get every last crumb
 Warm weekend in Moab and out for a hike

 Our living room with our new furniture:)

Mommy's little helper

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Happy Halloween

So for about a month I have been asking Jacob if he wanted to dress up as a family for Halloween. He never seem too interested but I figured I should still make Evie a costume because after all it would be her first Halloween. Eventually I decided I was going to have her be Minnie Mouse, I already had the perfect little skirt and shirt I found at DI so all I had to do was make her some ears and a bow, I thought I had gotten off pretty easy. But then Jacob got an invite to a Halloween party from a friend at school and of course it was a costume party. So we started brainstorming costume ideas, mine we pretty simple costumes but Jacob....well he got his mind set on Monsters Inc. So on the Tuesday before Halloween I found these pictures online and began the construction on the costumes.

So in two days I made three costumes, by the end Jacob wasn't so sure about dressing up....but I told him it was all his idea and he had better dress up...I won that battle:)and doesn't he look so happy about it. His face was supposed to be Mike's eye and we did have pillows stuffed in the costume so he was round but he didn't last long with them. I kind ran out of time so my hair is only half finished. You can kind of see on the other picture that I made a few snakes but the other ones are just pieces of felt...but I figured it was good enough for me:) Then came our cute little boo! Her costume was my favorite, I should have taken a picture of it before we put it on her because after we put it on her we had to make several adjustments so she could have a happy Halloween. The fins on her hands were closed off but we though she would be better off having use of her hands. I also had wire around the top of her outfit and in the hood so that it held a more round shape but she wasn't really a fan of that either. But she still looked pretty darn cute if I do say so myself! 


Thursday, October 11, 2012

Fall Family Pictures